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They keep talking about whether romance is dead , and I can't find good evidence for it. I like applying cream to my skin in the  winter . I like eating hot food in the winter. I like drinking hot beverages in the winter. I like fallen leaves in the winter. I like sunshine in the winter. But I don't like winter. It's too cold for me. I like everything about him. But he is too cold for me. There's nothing romantic here. There are boundaries and standards , and pride and prejudice existed at least from my side. If only it had been a little simpler, if only I'd known less.
They are speaking the truth. The fulcrum is me, the earth is my dream, and all there's left is a lever long enough. I need a "little" push, a little help, a little assistance. It's straightforward in my perspective, though the people who agree with me may not be able to provide that lever, and the capable people may not find my views potential. Not so easy, not the way it seems to you.
A genius is here, living among us, and he is willing to bring humankind to immortality . I can't help thinking about Frankenstein , the creator and the other genius who decided to live in the forest for the rest of his life. Although I am quite curious, it's better to stay away from you. It's better 'cause I have no intention to live in vain forever.
At certain levels, I would like to see my ancestors in person. The metaphor of life expectancy between the past and the present may differ. I don't know where to start or end. I may have ruined everything, everything that they dreamed of. I may have embarrassed them all, and I cannot recover at all. I bet they must be so disappointed in the person I've become. And the sarcastic thing here is that I'd be sorry only to them, instead of the people that I've ever hurt before.
Some patterns are strange and can't be detected. It's fun that you can foresee events and affairs, but it's even better with adorable and delightful surprises. Sometimes they can even reveal your true thoughts, feelings, or desires !
Oh! To be a contractor with no boss to report to ! Ahhhhh!
Just in time for a revision , it turns out that I've been walking on the right path all along. There's a fun path , an active path , and a shaping path . Can't wait for the next chapter of my life .
"When will I have self-entertainment ?"
I see a lot of victory without any cheers and celebrations . I also see losses with the best supporters from every place imaginable. If I got to choose which one I'd rather have, I'd choose the second one, not because I don't like meaningless achievements , but because I lack love and affection . You gain something from every choice you make. I do, too.
My mom told me why she got me so far apart from my big brother . And I'm so happy I was her lifebuoy from the beginning. I was born a gift!
I've never really thought of working in an office for the rest of my life, as if the mere idea of that subject isn't terrifying enough. Moreover, learning that the benefits I can obtain are limited to basic salary , bonuses , and stock options is sufficient to suffocate me. I must consider which kind of suffering I can tolerate, or which type of suffering will bring me the greatest thrill , before it can take my life away, from me.
That was exhausting . I was this close to being a bitch. Leaving all else constant, I can stay calm for a while. The effect of the environment will only  exacerbate my temper to the lowest level. It's not that I didn't want to hurt you; it's just that I didn't want to make a scene. It's about me.
The signs stay true to my heart. They go beyond expectations and strengthen the fact that I should focus on what I'm pursuing. In many cases, they are really going crazy. They even give me the impression that they are actually threatening me to stop lingering in some adrift searches .  Well, I bet there must be a reason.  I'll be seeing it soon.
The secret is out. I was hiding it for so long. It's so good to have supporters , though they're reluctant to admit that it's a favourable path for a lifetime . And I couldn't agree more.
Does it ever occur to you, that one day I'll be happy to lose you ? But it never occurs to me, that one day you'll be happy to lose me . And you're really not happy at all.
I know it myself that I chose to suffer and jump right into a world of deceit and cheating . But hearing it from Albert Einstein is so tantalising. It's a moment of truth . It's a reminder. It's a sign . But I need to try, even though it's hard. Without trying, I know that I'll regret it , not to mention I'm trying on behalf of my own work. Oh my, what will I tell them if I cannot make it? You see, the responsibility that I'm bearing, I cannot give it all up and live a calm and humble life . I hope it wouldn't end with " And she suffers abysmally ever after ".  Or is it a beginning?
Intuitive thoughts and decisions are fun, and they actually differentiate us from machines and robots . I've been acknowledging some cohabitations that act as a balancing role and result in a diversity that is fundamentally compulsory . Do you take notes with a pen and paper , or do you take notes with a screen and keyboard ? Do you live in the countryside full of poetic scenery and lovely nature , or do you live in the city filled with convenient facilities and thrilling entertainment ? Do you study science that is contributing to the development of humankind , or do you study arts that are investing in the subsistence of such a process? Will you get a robot to help you in the office or your home someday in the future? The differences between us, the preferences that tell us apart, we should keep them as such, forever.
Brighter days have come for me. Seeing the light after dull days is such a treat .  Help me hold on to you .
I want to have some little demons following me everywhere. Because I'm desperate, I may entertain them, and they would accompany me, so I don't feel alone. I even want to learn about their world . Is there something I should know? Hell could be terrible, or not . I want to know.
He grew by himself, all that time. He was alone, learning and losing. He gained a lot, too. He knew that there was only one entity of his kind in this world, so he asked for someone like him, and he didn't think about me. Not until the moment I met him again did I realise that he was not infatuated with me. We had too little time, he was just mirroring the way I treated him, and I was dying. There couldn't be any other chance, and we could only blame fate .  Wishing you a lifetime of peace and fulfilment, my little foliole .
I just want to quit everything . This is not enough to keep me going. This is preposterously insufficient to prove my effort. The results speak louder than myself. They got a space in me so cosmic it looks like a Black Hole instead of a flourishing garden . And I hate to make it a part of me. So I'll let it go.
She lost too much, and cannot heal. She would rather stay in such an illusion than face the truth . It was too much for her. In order to live, it is the only way. And you must help her, too.
I really expect to mix all sorts of greasy , starchy , proteinic , full of soluble fibre , preferably processed, and hyperpalatable food and eat it in one day before I die. I guess it is my only wish for that question.
Which one is more disgusting ? The fact that I can only touch a person regardless of the way they treat me, or the thought that it is disgusting? I guess you don't understand the way I detest myself, either. There's no limit to the hatred ; it just grows every day.
Relationships are expensive. Love is priceless. And what you're building there can make some people jealous . A healthy relationship doesn't just appear out of nowhere. You have to stop taking it for granted or acting like an asshole. Instead, try being grateful for what people have done for you. It is not easy to put effort and spend time doing volunteer work for someone who is acting like they're tolerating it. I myself won't bother abandoning you like some unrecyclable trash if I were them. You should know that.
That is so cute what you're trying there, but I've had enough. You see, it's not that you can't do better, it's me who wants someone better . We shouldn't expect someone to be better for us. In fact, you are someone better for someone out there. You should be proud of yourself . We, should be proud of ourselves .
What do you mean to work is to live? And even to think again, it makes so much sense. Just so much sense. Gotta bring it with me every day.
Procrastination is absolutely compelling, or at least I can have something to blame for being sooooo lazy.
There could be such an explanation why I don't want to have a baby , either by giving birth or adoption . Because I fear that they can't keep up with the world's development . Or worse, they wouldn't want to keep up with the  world's development, and they would become disappointed , depressed , and they would hate me for having ever given them the chance to live, even in a  high-quality  life . Or worse, they would hate themselves for having the thoughts of hating me, and they would choose to hurt themselves from time to time, and they would hide it away from me. And worse, they would just stop everything from happening over and over again, and they would end their lives, no matter what I could have done, no matter what I could have said, no matter what it could have been for us all.
It's staggering how we, despite possessing such things that other people desire, don't feel enough. I've read about happiness and wealth , and whether more money is associated with higher satisfaction . They said that at the point where money can guarantee us shelter , food , and other basic needs , no more accumulated wealth can lead to abundant pleasure . Human keeps allocating assets because of the jealousy they have when they see more successful people around. I myself have it, too. I can't help myself from being no greater than that. I can't find myself being any greater than that.