Relationships are expensive. Love is priceless. And what you're building there can make some people jealous. A healthy relationship doesn't just appear out of nowhere. You have to stop taking it for granted or acting like an asshole. Instead, try being grateful for what people have done for you. It is not easy to put effort and spend time doing volunteer work for someone who is acting like they're tolerating it. I myself won't bother abandoning you like some unrecyclable trash if I were them. You should know that.
God's sake, I can't put my mind to work when I love you. The system is not working, and suddenly I've become open-minded . The age gap just DOES NOT MATTER. And if there's any problem that you're blaming yourself for, just remember that you blocked my ability to THINK CLEAR , and that's your ONLY FAULT.