Dang Tran Ha Linh

I do not expect to continue this journal in a regular routine. Therefore, this concludes the daily updates . Even so, the evolution of my mind never stops. In a triggered recollection , such a journey has been paved so heavily that it is undeniably cruel and painful . But there will always be an outcome . I remind myself to be conscious every day. And yes, it will always go back. So yes, nothing lasts forever .

 Since you are just a pervert, I don't need to worry about you.

There is a concept of attraction between men and women . It's not even close to lust or desire . Something of the past, something of the present, something of the future. The things I've lost, the things I have, the things I want to possess. You are a reminder, a reflection, and a revolution . The bond .

Soon, there will be a new vortex . Better, younger, greedier.  Why? Are you afraid?

Push me forward like a ship setting off. I am so freeeeeeeee .

Maybe I'll beg for you.  My pride is tremendous. But I'll beg for you.

Ever been to the phase where everyone who'd done you wrong now actually got a point? My goodness, either you've become one of them, or you've gone mad . Too bad for you. Poor you!

They are giving up. Why can't I?

I don't know if you really need to commit fraud to make a living. What I see is more disappointment with this world , and the fact that I cannot trust anyone wholeheartedly anymore. What a shame!

I've got another Agatha Christie to read. Gosh, I've got another Agatha Christie to read ! Her books get me every time! What a shame I've got to leave the country and store my books in my hometown , where nobody knows whether or when I will revisit them once more. What a price for travelling the world , isn't it?

I understood why I lost that critical thinking skill when I presumed something was at its best. Now that it's back (Gosh, I'm glad it's back), I won't lose it again. Never!

I woke up late this morning, which is once in a blue moon . It felt like my soul had changed .

My life is divided into black and white . I used to wear a full white outfit with no problems or cringiness . Now I only wear full black outfits . There is no grey . There is no stuck-in-the-middle kind of relationship , half-hearted friends , or " social contacts ". I put a proper label on each person who may have a connection with me. For example, housemate , classmate , colleague , coworker , staff , client , etc. With or without a label, you are a mere stranger to me. That's it.

Gosh , I should ____ earlierrrrrrrrr . 

The real yankii is back. In this case, you wouldn't want to encourage them to be themselves, nor let them make themselves at home in your house. Anyway, there's something about them that will never change, and that part is so unique that you are jealous you can't pretend. They will always have that power, no matter how much time has flown.

Can't believe I've just changed my type . It seems like I really haven't met enough people .

He was able to love you with all his heart, regardless of your twisted manners. He saw your wicked , heinous , fiendish , iniquitous , execrable , and noxious behaviour, and he chose you.  But you would just play with that love.

You are going to leave me?

It takes more time to learn from  real life than at school. But the vampires have nothing but time. If only he were a vampire .

I see opportunities everywhere. They say that more options available will substantially slow down your decision-making , but it will only give me security . Thanks to them, I have plan A , plan B , plan C , etc. Isn't it great to know exactly what doors you can open? I'll probably make doors someday, and I'll make sure to make as many doors as possible.

Dear Louis , In the event you are reading this, something dreadful has occurred which is not my own death, but rather the fact that we both now exist in two different worlds . Do not waste life seeking revenge on the person or persons responsible. Do not give them the satisfaction of the hunt. Let treachery eat away at them from within. And you, you go carry on with your living. Know only this, mon cher , you are the only being I trust, and whom I love, above and beyond myself. All my love belongs to you. You are its keeper. A veil will now forever separate our union . But it is a thin veil, and I am always on the other side, face pressed up against your longing. Lestat de Lioncourt

Making a change for the world isn't facile , since every corner of the world is filled with irrevocable sins and crimes and guilt .  Nevertheless, my heart is big enough, so let me stand by you.

It was a shame I couldn't keep my conscience clean until the very end. The things that I said. The things that I did. The very definition of pure motives and incentives . They are all history now. And though the future condemns my own destiny , I would still yearn for the people with such pure hearts and souls . Cannot change the way I am; it just soothes my greed for a little longer.

Such sarcasm that I would willingly do the things that I used to hate learning . Well, sometimes it makes sense. Because I didn't hate the subject itself, but the one who was supposed to make me love it.