I know it myself that I chose to suffer and jump right into a world of deceit and cheating. But hearing it from Albert Einstein is so tantalising. It's a moment of truth. It's a reminder. It's a sign.

But I need to try, even though it's hard. Without trying, I know that I'll regret it, not to mention I'm trying on behalf of my own work. Oh my, what will I tell them if I cannot make it? You see, the responsibility that I'm bearing, I cannot give it all up and live a calm and humble life.

I hope it wouldn't end with "And she suffers abysmally ever after". 

Or is it a beginning?