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"Euphoria" and that song: "Trust me I'm not falling No supersonic heartbeats in the morning Don’t trust me I might fall in I never think about you at all" "Hanging Out To Dry" - Florence Road
The debate about maturity is not so tricky to tackle, yet not so easy to process. But when I get tired of everything, I just want to leave it behind and go home to someone. I have fought all the way alone. I have stopped trying to talk sense to someone who can't reason for themselves. I have stopped putting effort into something people would die trying to achieve. I have stopped looking for better things everywhere I go or want to go. I have stopped hoping and caring; instead, I got drained and worn. I really don't want to do this a second time. If there is reincarnation or an afterlife for me, please, erase my memories , in both brains and muscles.
I can call you out for internity, for the things you can't have, which you got rid of from your life, but you keep having them run riot in your mind.  Do you know how pathetic you are?  Yes, you are.
Travelling is not for the weak. It is a full combo of penance , or nothing.
And the meaning of life, is just what humans created. Just so that we see a life worth living. Sadly so and truthfully so.
Baldwin IV has been in my mind lately. I wonder if he would want to live again, without the disease . After all, no one can choose their end. But I know he will live in full capability, nevertheless.
I swear I'll have a head of hair when I die. There is absolutely no way I'm gonna be cremated while being bald. I don't care if I got cancer and got my head shaved. I'll wear a wig to my grave and leave it at that. What a joke and an act of audacity to say that humans will look like that in the future. Don't you look at yourself in the mirror? I don't care if we are not exactly the same species. You being MY descendants is out of question. Lucky me, again, as I will not live to see those terrible-looking faces on my offspring . OH dear, if you got such a face, I'll die AGAIN, I will not faint but die AGAIN!