Well, I may have that disorder. It's surprising, though. But it's not really important. I just force myself to be 'normal'. And that is the problem. It doesn't help much to blame the fairness of this world for your situation. But I still do. It's fucking insane because I'm afraid to be unique. They're gonna judge and criticise till the day we die. Hardly had I done anything better, or worse. "They keep me normal". I said. Although I know deep down in this rotten soul, EVERYTHING is different.
God's sake, I can't put my mind to work when I love you. The system is not working, and suddenly I've become open-minded . The age gap just DOES NOT MATTER. And if there's any problem that you're blaming yourself for, just remember that you blocked my ability to THINK CLEAR , and that's your ONLY FAULT.