It takes up my energy. Much. To stay down-to-earth. And I feel empty. And I lose track of things. They are so deceptive. And hateful. Out of me. It makes me wanna hug him more. To hide. To run. But it's just my illusion. There's no chance. And I have to ride alone. I ran out of battery. But I have only one way to recharge. So I sleep. What if it's not enough? What if I fall before I sleep? What if...?
God's sake, I can't put my mind to work when I love you. The system is not working, and suddenly I've become open-minded . The age gap just DOES NOT MATTER. And if there's any problem that you're blaming yourself for, just remember that you blocked my ability to THINK CLEAR , and that's your ONLY FAULT.